It been a long time since i have a locked post. I’ll lock it and throw the key away, thats for the best. After that, i’ll forget about it and laugh at it 3 years later.

I wanted to make it public but of course, with everything said inside, i must be trying to commit social sucide. Even the picture i drew on Paint to depict my mindset is just as plain as day. No publishing that. I’m sorry, there’s something i must keep to myself.

I’ll be good as new as the next day approach.

“Colour my life with chaos of trouble“

Its the holidays again! Wee wee, nothing to do for the whole day. Bleh. Oh wells. Oh ya, on a note, i’m sick! Boohoohoo. Right smack in my holiday leh. =(

GOING TO REST NOW! HURRRH!

Its not un-used, it’s just the lack of emotions.

Wow, its been a terrible long time since i last blogged. Well who’s even keeping tab on this blog anyway. Hey, holiday is blowing fast and woah, time is really really flying fast, soon i before i know it, i will finish my 3 year course and next thing i know i will be cocking rifles and laying prone on the fucking jungle floor.

My life is … just a blank now. Once work start again, i’ll just be the same old guy clocking 8 hours a day, returning home to my nothingness all over again- sleep and get all ready for the 8 hours clockwork.

And i removed a colour from my life. Someone that could brighten my life up, someone i will share my life with, to hold me and hug me. But it’s for the better right. My colourlessness life would just suck up everything away.

I’m even bored with my game already. I stayed away from it the whole day today.

I’m going to be a sucker for socialising too. I’ll talk to anyone or anything soon. Hah.

I want to go out to have dinner with a group of people or someone but i’m too lazy to pick up the phone to organise one.

I’m sneezing like mad now. Oh boy.

Aye, have not been updating the blog for a damn long time but who cares, cause i only update the blog when i have problems. So that means i have no problems! Aye. Oh well, exams are finally over, managed to pull through the 1 week of mugging day and night. Woo. Out of the 5 papers, i think i’m pretty confident for 3 papers, the other 2 is just meh. Oh well, hopefully i can get a decent B or better A for my clinical posting, DIPLOMA WITH HONORS- HERE I COME! HAH.

Okay, of course, there isnt with Honors kind. Oh well, who cares. And so coming this monday i will be having my attachment for 1 month at the world best hospital. Oh yes, the greatest. I’m so honored to be able to have my posting there. Woo.

And hmm, thats all, any single girl interested in looking for boyfriend, please leave a comment here, i’ll get back to you. Thanks. Ideal to be staying nearby so i dont have to take a bus or train or a boat to visit you. And there are more conditions, i will fill you in when i have shortlisted you. Thank you very much. Best of luck girls.

I lie first, then i’ll make myself believe the lie.

I have been contemplating for a long time, cause i want to be heard by others but i want it to be subjective hearing. I want people to read it but i dont want everyone to read it. But what the heck.

Finally, every single project set out in Year 3 has been completed and i believe it has been done well. Well, at least in my eyes. I have been pretty stressed and no thanks to that, my white hairs are a bunchful. Well, in every group, you get to learn new things about people and such. But i’m glad i managed to survive. I may not be honest with myself and to the people around me but i’ll do what i have to do.

And all of the sudden, everyone realised that the end of the course is coming, we wont get to see each other for about 6 months till our graduation and, its not given that we might be graduating in the same day. So the 27th of this day might be the very last day we might see some people in our life. =/ The very thought doesnt makes me shudder or go sentimental. I think it’s just fact of life and it’s just up to the individual to make an effort to stay in contact.

A personal belief i have had since the secondary school days, no thanks of me being so jaded, i believe anyone in a relationship should never be allowed to enjoy the best of the 2 worlds. The 2 worlds being a good friendship and a good relationship. Yeah, call me sour grape or what, but whats i think. Especially relationships formed within close circles. Ah well, there are always conditions. But i will never make it easy. No fucking way you get a happy ever after. In a relationship, you lose friendship. Enjoy.

I should study. It’s just 5 subjects and i’m left with 13 days. Aye, i should be able to manage it. Yeah, just gotta force myself.

School’s ending soon. Well, somewhat. Modules are clearing up and exams are looming around the corner. Just next month. And yeah, i got to start to study soon. Gotta lock my door and mug. Or mug at Mos Burger, the place where distinction students are. Lol.

Ya, everyday lessons are like only for 2 hours long, piff, what a waste of time. =P Nah, but at least i can get to wake up later. Ah wells. I’m just left 1 more presentation and i’m all free for the exams.

Ah wells, i dont know what to update cause well, there’s nothing much, just living day to day. Been going out with Ling Xuan for supper for a couple of nights. So good to live near by. And i think we should stop mulling over our pathetic lives every single supper. Lol. We’re gona get jaded.

Sigh. My mood isnt really up but it isnt really down. Which is good i think. I’m thinking between- having someone to like but being really emo or having no one to like but being neutral. Ah. Perhaps i have the inability to like someone currently. I need a change of environment. New place, new people. And i dont think i will meeting girls in the army. Lol. Oh perhaps… a change of taste? Haha, just kidding.

Oh well.

WANTZ TO FALLZ IN LOVEZ, WILLING TO PAY LOTZ-

When you think your life suck, just go read FML. Then your life cant be that bad or else you would be winning those awards in FML. So just suck it up and smile, it isnt that bad!

Ya ya ya! Finally done with my Final Year Project! Phew, glad thats over. It will tiring but damn fun. Plus the residents were really enthu. Ah well. After that, had a mini-gathering at my place for a belated Yee Meng’s birthday. A simple one with by just playing Guitar Hero (as usual) and i do agree i’m pretty bored of it. Lol. And we watched some youtube videos and i showed them some 4ch stuff. Not for the weak hearted.

Then i teased them with some jdrama previews. Oh oh, of course there was the cake. And it’s going to be my breakfast tomorrow. Lol. Oh boy, i cant wait. And i’m still hungry. The headache after the FYP put off my appetide but a few rounds of games solved that. Hah.

AND DAMMNIT LESTER! He used my facebook to write weird messages to about some unknown girl and then i only found out that he used my blog to write more weird messages when yee meng told me an hour later. RAWR!

what the heck.